Esther has discovered, as you are discovering, that she can’t control their perception of her. And when she tries, she loses her connection to who she is.
And the ONLY thing that ever makes anyone feel negative emotion is loving connection to who they are.
So many people who stand in the midst of condemnation, no matter what it is that they are condemning, it always causes you to behave in ways that are different from who you really are. As you stand in condemnation, it always makes you defensive. As you stand in separation from who you really are, it always feels awful.
When are you in the vortex, and you understand that about them, you love them in their condemnation. You understand they are having a step 1 moment. You understand that what they want is alignment. They just haven’t figured out how to find their alignment.
Washington, DC 10-24-09